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jack scrimshaw aka cactus jack
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[Jul. 7th, 2009|10:05 pm] |
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the little boy was his daughter paris whoops. but she said it all. |
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| humbled |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|08:58 pm] |
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oh how the mighty do fall. Today i've witnessed something like no other. I've never cried so many tears for someone i've never met though as hope said i have met him. I've known him all my life. I saw a small child go up on stage barely able to speak for his tears but wanting totell the whole world how much he loved his dad. I am unashamed to say i cried a bucket i screamed out the unfairness of it all! if you weren't ifected you are no human. You have no heart. As a friend on twitter just said i think we're all a little kinder a little gentler after that. he's right. To have someone taken so unexpetadly to see such an outpouring of grief will humble the best of us. It certainly humbled me. i have been harsh i have been vicious i have hurt in my time. I hope to overright it with good. i saw somebody who while i was a fan i made the but of many jokes do somehting that i only dreamed of doing. Not being mobbed my girls and treated like a king but playing to millions and giving his love to people that needed it the most. I saw someone hwo touched the word for the shortest of times and left a preminent impresion. I only wish that i myself can do a tenth of that. |
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| birthday |
[Jul. 4th, 2009|05:57 pm] |
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i'm 24 today. Got most of my presents early this year whichi ncluded me buying myself a playsation 3. Hopey got me a button accordion hwich eagle sitll haven't sent. Spent a lovely afternoon with the grandparents and now er'e back home looking forward to a nice eveningwith holdem and my favourite telly and of course each other. Was terrorized by a massive bumble bee outside the flat today bastard hting. I think t wanted to get around me or past me so i stepped away sure enough it was gone. Horrid creature. To all those sending birthday wishes ithankyou to those who due to time differences haven't been able to yet i await them to those who just coulnd't b bothered fuck you and the horses you rode on last night! |
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| new band member |
[Jul. 2nd, 2009|09:05 pm] |
yay! after some discution with the other band members i asked claire bland to join us She accepted and is now a blind furey member. I tink this will b totaly benificial to the band as its a second gitarist which allows me to alternate to the mandolyn now and again and it fills in all the grey arias i have. have tried makeing contact with marissa as regards a project i'm hopeing to set up with a bunch of us a sort of imagened village blind style. If you don't know what that is listen to some good folk music cause i ai'nt telling. Desmond hates the fan but its the only way to keep the place cool! i do worry about him in the hot weather. Have cut my left little finger annoying! its my guitarchording finger! wanker woo waffle burger! 24 on saturday. Course i'll enjoy it cause hope's here and dad is comeing to take us to see my grandparents which will b real nice. Might ask if we can go see nana as well but atmos might b a bit unconfortable for that. Ah well i dare say she'll call if not i shall call her. Its important for us to stick together. I must b good to the goodens as time may b growing short. November we'll know then of course it might not who knows. called sky about being kicked off the net same fella as last time. He blames the extention cable.loads of speel bout high requency cables for ?60! awwh hope said "i don't like you" in a very cute little english style kid voice. She's cheering me up. I worry about her in this heat. I saw her go down again monday night lifting the sohpping. I shouldn't get upset i must not worry but my guard is allways up. I will not fail her! usualy the walk from kitchen to liveingroom is about 15 seconds i did it in 2 that monday night hurdling 6 bags of shopping to get to hope so she did'nt fall again. little people so fragile and precious. Yet they break so easy. Its the heat of course. bringing on these worries i long for the cold touch of a gentle autmn breeze or the pat pat of a drop of rain. Dad called tonight sounded fairly happy. Was round his place itl half 12 saturday night longest i ever spent at his house aside from when we first picked hope up from the airport.that most special of days that seems so many years a go and yet is only six short months. I will repair the damage i will overcome with hope at my side together we can acheeve the impossible. |
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| revolution |
[Jul. 1st, 2009|10:18 am] |
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| | god dayamn! | ] |
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| | lots of things | ] |
today's starting well had a good kpi last night and am feeling better. Sat outside for a couple hours in the night air and it felt very nice indeed.I'm going to take a different turn on things i htink. Rather than being the seaker of justice as i have been before and try and cast out the pond life i'm just going to talk to the so called outsiders and carry on unless they've directly effected me or hope in some way. The way i see it if marissa can talk to us someone that lost everything lost a lot of friends and without blowing my own a damn good album can talk to us why should we not try too. Sod the "people's opinion" after all everybody goes there own way don't they. The world is getting warmer and it could end in 2012 according to some. These ai'nt quacks nither these are whize people i'm talking about. i have my health and strength99% of the time. time to use it. The music will sort itself out i'm sure. Just give me that motivation. I know at least 2 superb musicians no make that 3! its time to unite and use our talents work together on something that is going to rock the music world! saying no more as i've not discussed the idea with the others. Hell it could fall on its arse. But i'd like ot try! |
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| musicalness |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|01:05 pm] |
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| | determined | ] |
lately i've been on the back burner as far as music goes well for hte last 3 weeks definitly. I just don't have the inspiration at the moment. I can still talk it but to play? nothing. Perhaps its because my life is complete. I have ideas but when it comes to picking up the guitar they go. Ruth notman is looking for musicians i will b putting my name forward. I've uploaded stuff to the myspace page which can be found here.
also broadcasting another show today last week i had no finess no ideas no bang! i saw kristian broadcast sunday and ship in the listeners and i wondered waht's the secret. I used to know it. Perhaps this is just a bit of down time all be it very small. I have other concerns at the moment and other happyer things going on but the musical side does concern me. Which is why i had to write it here. Thelast recording i made had to b one of the best i've ever done. This time? it could b i guess i just need the motivation someone to so go on jack play us this song. Finding out who your true friends areis perhaps diveing that motivation down hill with a brick on the exalarator too. They all have there reasons there various excusis or what have you. fact is though i thought as true friends you'd like to see an old friend happy. Perhaps i was wrong. |
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| mj tribute aswritten by hope |
[Jun. 26th, 2009|02:31 pm] |
this was just a comment but i want it on display for all to read. This is a real beautiful sentiment.
n innocent heart, who was really just a child himself has left an indellible mark on the world, and on our times. He shall never be forgotten, and he shall always be the one, and only, Michael Jackson, the one who just wanted you to smile, and to Heal the World, and the one who, even now, sings out, You are Not Alone. All he wanted was for peace, and for the world to be healed of its wars and killings. Rest in peace now, Michael. Wherever you are, you are no longer alone, and misunderstood because Someone In the Dark Reaches out to you.
In loving memory,
all your fans who span the generations |
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| shock |
[Jun. 26th, 2009|08:33 am] |
i allways said i'd apretiate everybody and look out for everybody sadly i forgot someone. Its funny you never really miss someone until they die. Until there taken away from you forever. Worst still if its happened long before there time. I grew up with michael's records. My first album was bad when i was 2 years old. I'll come out and say it everything past 95 sucks! but a legend has died before there time thanks to the media thanks to the press again! they did it with elvis and now michael. this must stop! I don't care what he aledgidly did far as i'm concerned you have some vile parents out there i mean yes 2 cases it doesn't look good on paper but i loved his music! i'm not talking about the person i don't htink aybody ever really knew the real michael but the music is somehting that will live forever. |
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| michael jackson is dead |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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what else can i say. First album bad aged 2. nothing else for me to write total shock here. |
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| late after some thought |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|10:34 pm] |
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had a cold can of coke and just sitting and thinking things over. Its the old saying you can't change the world in a day you can't put out a fire with a rain drop etc etc. But i'm one of those people that will have a good go at it. As long time readers will know. For example this weekend now we have no less than four people that want to see us. Me and hope that is. Had i had my way we could see them all but sadly as we all know taht just ai'nt gona happen. Btw none of those are int eh catigory i was bad mouthing earlyer. Thank christ. There are more people who aren't in that catigory than those who are. but those that are those few seem like thousands some days. it matters little what i saypeople will go ahead and do it anyway butwell i'm going round in circles here. now for some classic just a minute me thinks. Tomorrow htings will look better. |
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| feel like i done 12 rounds |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|09:55 pm] |
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| | wieght off my shoulders | ] |
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| | hope's show | ] |
i don't know why but my back's giveing me bother feel like i've ploughed a fucking field and i've done bugger all today. I wish i could say i have. aside from the radio show its not the case. it seems these days iether my atention is constantly being begged for or i'mbeing chased by people who are beyond my help because they won't help themselves. People wonder i'm sure why every otehr word is hope in this journal i'll tell ya! she does want to help herself! she's got the drive she had it long before i came along. My other matesthat have that drive why do u hardly see them update? simple! there oding it now. There eing somebody's. Take people like jack goodfellow striveing to survive the way he knows how. Take people like krysta who don't talk much never bitches or wines about nothing but gets used as a vt doormat cause folks come in wipe there feet then fuck off even me sometimes. There the folks that just don't give atoss they just keep right on going. Because they know only 1 person will get them to the top themselves. I see all aorund memistakes being made or as i say calls for my atention and i do nothing anymore as i owuld have. I figure this. Your mistakes your life. Go for itif i try to stop you waht will it do just cause more trouble. But i ask only this. Do not! hold me responsible for your mistakes. Nor say that i influenced your actions. Because inever asked to b a heero or hated. I only asked to have the best time possible being jack d scrimshaw. i'm cactus jack and that's my opinion pure jack 666! |
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| aftermath |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|10:01 am] |
hope's a lot better htis morning. Was a worrysome night but she's okay now. thank god. Was one of the hardest htings i've ever gone thorugh but to know that my little ray of sunshine is all right sure its the only hting that was close to my mind. I will spare details as its quite frankly not for these pages. Aside from the update of yesterday. Needless to say my guard was lowered and we'd taken the fact that the episodes were at bay for granted. I iwll not! make the same mistake again! |
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| today |
[Jun. 20th, 2009|12:03 pm] |
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| | figureing out the puzzle of life | ] |
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| | WWF.Capital.Carnage.1998.CD1.VHSRip-KYR | ] |
today is set to b a good one. Off to do some techy stuff this afternoon for john and there's more boxing on tonight. As regards last nights entry all i shall say is htis. Hope's alement is not physical its internal in the brain you can't pull off the brain's socks and take a look and say ooh that's bad. You don't know what will trigger it and what won't. Oh and by the way yes she is okay. see its notwhat you have or what you can do its your personality and the way you care that gets you good mates. As quoted from the mrs herself. |
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| the weekend |
[Jun. 19th, 2009|08:29 pm] |
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| | runaway train | ] |
well the weekend does look promiseing aside from the usual shit of course. it seems that there are some folks out there who are never happy unless there misserable or stirring up the shit with me and hope. Get it straight its like its allways been nothing u do willphase us we tell each otehr everything and we know your gam es. We treat you as blemishes on the buttocks of our lives but every so often the blemish has to b burst. We are more than capable of bursting at the moment. we're not going to b anybody's standby. We are not going to be torn apart. If htis keeps up we damn sure won't b calling htis place home. Remember the clock is ticking so its like this. With us against us choose slap nuts and enjoy it. Age old words which i've written oh lord i lost count of how many times i've had to write htis. But sometimes frustrations have to b vented.experimenting with mctwat i mean twit. I like it. Its quite accessible with the brian hartgen scripts. now sitting on vt and kicking back waiting for the boxing. |
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| twitter twatter and mk versus dc |
[Jun. 19th, 2009|11:16 am] |
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| | hope desmond and desmond's cage | ] |
i've invaded twatter. Recovered my details and had fun with it on vt last night. Someones and somethings have no place on there its all open and public which is good. So no he said she said no they don't rubbish. As it should be. What bugs me is when twitter friends say i'm being influenced. See i can do it too look at me! Say waht u mean damn it! This morning i competed mortal konbat versus dc universe on the playstation 3 yay for me! Also in closeing there will b no loud twitter on this journal. Or what would b the point of having both. |
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| tiredly happy |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|10:27 pm] |
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| | soft bed | ] |
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| | Line Recording (107 the phoenix live with the audio mirror) | ] |
from nil ps3 games to 4 all in 1 day not bad eh? good old birthday money. So here it is all the stuff worth updateing. Ruth was amazing.Cd was signed and a chat had during the interval. A real nice lass. The ps3 arrived yesterday and sat there being stared at by me all night at least form an audio perspective. The evil postman did'nt bring my game. Today he was hoisted up by his ankles and dropped off the balcony in to a vat of nanny's pastry after he'd given me my 4th game that is. So now i have:
madden 2009 mortal konbat versus dc universe nfl tour and soul calibur 4. Most entertaining they have been too. Been a bit hot and bothered today oer various things. Hope's been told to take it steady by the men of medicen because of this week's unpleasantness and as a result its no scunny this weekend. most annoying that is too. Really feel like odnig something good htis weekend. Money's very tight though but as hope said birthdays only come once a year. And it is the end of the month well nearly. This year has gone so fast! that's the whole hoar's duvette darlings enjoy it! |
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| today |
[Jun. 9th, 2009|10:31 am] |
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well so much for a stress free day yesterday. Today is judgement day. Well at least the 156 judgement day of htis incarnation. That's nearly half a year. The bitch i'm sorry blind comunity has had its wine andas usual it concerns those of us trying to elad normal lives. Shane and lulu i spoke too and sorted everything out with. This is good cause now there can b no he said htis and she said that. Its time for a lot of things. To dicide which way the radio career's going, to help some people form tehre own opinions rather than use those of others and above all to get this thing back on track.You would think would you not that nw at this point in my life after ten years of doing this i'd b a whizer man. I'd b able to avoid all this. Sadly not. Because i have to b a rock for people too you know. Much as i fit the callas uncareing roll on stage off stage i do care about people whether you believe that or not. I judge useing pure simple fact. I see hope for us all. There are only 3 people that there's no way back for with me and none of them are friends of mine. Mess's jerimy rusu roary hoffman (should that b miss roary) and niel i can't spell your last name niel udders. You have torturedmy love to the point of madness. You have also clouded the judgement of my close friends with your lights! oh if only i could acheeve some retribution. I will though. Your lighs will b unvailed. I love mp3 call burner. |
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| final phoenix update |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|06:51 pm] |
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okay as a final update to the phoenix and 1 or 2 other things. First of all the twatter thing. I don't want to block anybody from messinger or skype just the lj's ofthese bloody updates. That's all. Those of you who have seen fit to just destroy a friendship because of 1 bloody website? you sure as hell weren't the people i thought u were. Secondly i've been in talks with shane the phoenix boss. He's apologised for the missunderstanding and we've agreed that tomorrow's show will go ahead. Now whether this is my goodbye show or not i honestly don't know. It very well might b. Because its not just shane that's cut me to the core here there's plenty who if they had beef with me could have talked to me about it before writing ot the list. In any case it might b fun to try my hand at owning a station. That being said i will not b competeing with the phoenix. right i've said my piece. And it goes like this from here on in. Those of you dropping like flies keep dropping because u know what? i'd rather not have you around than have u pretending u give a flying fuck! |
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